I don’t think there will ever be a 3rd chance because of my situation now. Will we ever be again? Can we allow that to exist? What do I do? How will I live the rest of my life feeling like I missed out on another chance with my person. I can void you out of my memory for only so long before you come back and take over my body. What do I do now? I feel like you are my person, my soulmate, my first love. I know you hate me now so I have nothing left in my to give. But am I happy? I think I am ands then I find myself longing for you. It would kill me to see you with someone else happy. I reached out to you and you never listened, never responded. Moved on, had different relationships and every single time I found myself dreaming of you. The three years before that were a dream that it would come. K- it’s been almost 10 years since we pursued this. The worst thing is i only wish her happiness, even if i realize that it's going to be somebody else doing what i want.įirst love must be the worst, you do not get over it, you just learn to live with it. I guess the first love defines you in so many ways. Anyways, I'm in the process of moving on all over again and it isn't easy. I keep telling myself that she was made for me in another life. Maybe I fantasize too much and I'm chasing something that will never come back to me. I thought she was the one, a part of me still does. Even found a girl who was like her but was more compatible with me in every single way however my first love lives forever in me. I told myself that but after seeing her actually getting engaged. I can't even begin to explain how sad I felt. I haven't spoken to her in 3 years and recently just found out she's engaged. She and I have a no contact thing so I am cut from her life forever. She was going to serve a mission and wanted to marry a mormon man. We were together for around 2 years before officially breaking it off. We risked it all, loved each other and decided to be in a relationship anyways. I mean she had fallen in love with her closest girl best friend. I fell in love with her instantly, but she was a mormon and that caused a lot of conflicts in our relationship. I met her when I was 15 years old in high school. Has anyone reconnected with their first love and are now together as you knew they were yoir one true love?įirst love getting married on July 23, 2020: Maybe we'll meet again, even if it's in the nursing home. I doubt you still think of me after all these years but you never know what the future holds. I regret being angry with you that day and I wish I could have told you one last time that I really loved you, because I did. The last time I saw you tears were streaming down your face and through my anger I didn't even try to comfort you. L, I still wonder about you almost a decade and several relationships later.